Yep, life just keeps happening...the sun rises and sets...you remember to check your email and wash your clothes, but you forget to post your thoughts for the entire world to see.
Now, I didn't forget about it the entire time, but it seems that the times I thought of posting, my schedule was so packed, I could hardly think of putting words in a line to make sense, let alone to make them engaging.
So, here we are. So much has happened (so much is happening) and therefore it's hard to know where to start. There have been countless moments of great joy and contentment, and there have been just as many moments of doubt, confusion and frustration.
But in the midst of all this, God is good.
God has been teaching me (again) that my days are useless unless they are orchestrated by Him. Even the "good" things that I strive to do in my own strength are worthless when they are done with the wrong motives and a prideful heart. God's plan for me is for growth and not for prosperity (at least not the way my culture perceives it). But success for God is not quantitative, it's qualitative. Numbers don't impress God, but humility and patience are His Play-Doh.
When was the last time you played with Play-Doh? Man, I could handle that stuff for hours! Then again, I'm a kinesthetic learner--we love touching things. But there's so much you can do with it, and it feels so good in your hands. But you know what doesn't feel good? Crusty Play-Doh....oh, yuck! Throw that junk away! It's useless, it's irritating when you encounter it in a handful of soft dough, and it's...it's...it's just wrong. Am I ever crusty Play-Doh in the hands of God?
I don't want to be stubborn and stuck in my old habits and ways of thinking....I would much rather be soft, pliable Play-Doh.
So that's what God has been teaching me in these days (and weeks and months) of silence on my poor, neglected blog. And now that I'm almost at the end of this phase of my life, we'll see how this blogger does with staying connected to her online journal.
Thanks for being patient with me.
